Reality Check!

There are many things in my life that I am proud of and thankful for...but it doesn't always come w/ an easy price as I wish it did.  Lately things have been more of a struggle then sometimes I think they are worth.  Right now things are just "okay" they aren't great, they aren't fantastic, but they also aren't anything to complain about.  I have plenty to be thankful for...and I am. I'm very thankful to all of my friends and family who have constantly supported every move and decision I have made.  I will always be grateful.  And to Martin, who has been in my life intimately, you are praised even moreso for putting up w/ my antics which I KNOW are sometimes more then even I can handle.  I guess in a way I have spent the past few weeks thinking about how I have given so much of myself and time to others and recieved so little in return.  Now I have spent today looking at how rediculous that notion is and how selfish it makes me seem.  I am sorry, I didn't mean for my mind to flutter to thoughts like that.  Where I turn my nose up and think, "they didn't even say thankyou" or "thankyou just isn't good enough this time." I stop and think of how stupid that sounds!  I will always continue to treat others as i like to be treated, I can't expect a grand gesture in return...not too many people are as free flowing with their emmotions as I am and that is okay.  It's a learning experience and as much as I wish that I could have it all...the knowledge, the wealth, the beauty, etc...I can't.  Nobody can...so now i realize we are all in the same grand boat called life.  We each have our own path and we each make of it what we want but it is NEVER easy.  Though my mind has slipped away from this thought a few times within the last couple months...I'm back to my old self.  Funny how I spend so much time searching for the answer that was right in front of me the whole time, my answer wasn't found within others...it was found within my own self.  Gosh...I can be so stupid sometimes (and i mean that in the most positive way...lol).

So with that said, no more complaining about where my life is right now...I'm happy that you are in it and I will forever show gratitude!

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